Nightmare...

Hmmm... actually not really nightmare.

But what I had dreamed recently was a great disturbance to my sleep and mood. How I wished I could sleep peacefully whole night.

Not going to review what I had dreamed recently. They were too private and could be affecting quite a number of people.

I want to let go things and live happily.

Gathering on 28-Jul-08

Last night I met up with Penny and her hubby John, Farrah and Hazel at Grace Garden for dinner and catch up. Penny is now a 6.5 mths preggie. Was bit envy that she is so blissful and her baby girl Kylie Woon is coming to join their family very soon. But what to do? :P

Was a good catch up as we have not met each other for quite some time. Penny is back for 2 weeks for holiday and hopefully we could meet again before she left back to Perth via JB and Singapore.

Dear Lord, please bless Penny and John with good health and blissful marriage life. Please bless Kylie with good health and wisdom. Amen...

My "Baby" is coming home today!!!!

Finally, my pc is coming home in coming few hours.

My fren told me that my window is alright. What happened was some-dunno-wat-part was bit loosen, caused my pc not able to function.

On top of this, my new ram is also just back from warranty and installed.

So, gonna try my pc out tonight. Hopefully that's the end of the "hospitalization" of my baby. Heart-ache + lonely le... hehe... :P

One After Another...

Thanks God for being with me all the time when I was in difficult and tough situation. Thanks God for keeping me clear all the time and did not get myself into danger/death.

Just couldn't believe it myself that bad things come after another to me. Non-stop... while good things just didn't come to me (maybe got, but just too many bad one and didn't realise of the good one).

After 2 weeks of on and off fever, flu and cough, finally I recovered but still rather bit weak. Then, not long after, I got ulcer and it's been 2 weeks now and still not subside. I got difficulty to eat and drink. So painful that my tooth and gum are terribly painful and even my throat also affected. OMG~~~

I have not been eating and drinking much recently due to my ulcer and also not in good mood of enjoying and savouring food. Just too much stuffs in my mind. Good anyway, chance to get some weight off. :P

My office pc is back to action 5 days back and it has been working so far so good.

While, my home pc back to action too yesterday but... not working... Some window files corrupted (according to my friend)... So, need to admit my home pc back to hospital today... previously was hardware problem (RAM spoilt and eventually I paid for a new one coz warranty will take years). Now, software problem. Hopefully that's the end of it.

When can I get over all the bad lucks???? I'm not greedy le... not asking for good one, but just want to get over all the bad one....

Please God... please help me....

Good Day

I felt better today.

Today is my uncle's birthday. So I told myself that I must make sure I myself is in good mood and happy to celebrate his birthday for him. I bought him a Quicksilver shirt for his birthday present. Then, we headed to Hyatt for buffet lunch. There were 6 of us (my uncle, aunty, brother, Aunty Lilian, a KL friend and myself). We were having great time with the delicious food and also catching up. Everyone left with BIG tummy... :P

Back to office bout 3pm+. Then I tried to check out some HK hotel deals for my family Nov'08 HK trip. Quite surprised that all the hotels in HK are damn expensive now. Cheapest one also costs us RM300. Wow...

Then, I took a quick shower and getting ready to go for church cell group (as usual for Thursday). Then my mobile rang. My instinct told me it won't be J. The Digi number wasn't known to me.

Unknown: Is this Clarice (my chinese name, actually my friends all normally call my Chinese name)?
Me: Yes.
Unknown: Do u remember me? I'm XXXXXX...
Me: I was like hmmm... hmmm.... (was actually digging my long lost memory)
Unknown: I'm XXXX le... we were in same Primary Five class... and also who who who le... we all were in same class....
Me: I think I remember... (actually I'm still in searching mode, and some kind like close to it) ow u get my number? (of course must ask ma, dangerous le if everyone could get my no)
Unknown: U know la... nowadays network is so good online bla bla...
Me: I never put my contact no online...
Unknown: Basically, there's something like mouth to mouth... and I'm now in a cafe, with dunno what kinds of board games...
Me: Is it Carcasean???? U got my no from Sean????
Unknown: Yes, u r right...

We both burst in laughter.... and we agreed to come out for a catch up maybe tomorrow night. Haha... what a small world? people still remember me after like for 16years?????!!!!! Or actually I'm too famous???? hahahaha....

I sound better and happier right? :=) Anyway, I must make myself to live happy...

^ Funny Theories^

Someone comes out with these funny theories but somehow quite true...

Theory 1:
If someone who is STUPID meet another STUPID person, then it will become STUPID SQUARE.
If two STUPID meet another STUPID person, then it will become CUBIC STUPID.

Theory 2:
If someone who is SLOW meet another SLOW person, then it will become SLOW SQUARE.
If two SLOW persons meet another SLOW person, then it will become CUBIC SLOW.

Theory 3:
If you always speak to STUPID person, then you will also become STUPID.

Theory 4:
If you always deal with MACHINE, then you will also become MACHINE.

Haha... lots more that I couldn't recall.... sound brainless but actually quite true... haha...

Please

God,

Please help me and J. Please bless us with happiness. Please bless us with blissful and happy relationship.

Amen...

Hmmm....

Hmmmm...

Supposed to feel better after keeping myself busy like hell... trying so much to keep myself occupied with piles of works when I was at work, busy with house chores and reading and surfing while at home. Other time I would shopping, watching movies with family and friends, accompanying my parents watching TV, and bla bla bla.... sometimes doing something that I wasn't related too as well....

The more I think, the more I stressed up. Of course, I'm really stressed up now... I don't know what to do to the extent that I don't feel like wanna continue my live anymore. If I lost J, it's totally meaningless to live on.

I know God must be really disappointed with me. I never give up myself. Never ever no matter how difficult and tough situation. This is the only time that even I myself feel that I myself totally not alright at all. The only reason is J is too important to me. Without him, Clarice would no longer be Clarice.

Oh God, please help me. I need help and support desperately. I have never been so restless and helpless before. I love J so much that I couldn't afford losing him in my life. I felt so miserable and lost. I am not happy at all. Not even a single moment. Please help me God with whatever means. Please bless J and me a happy and blissful relationship. Amen...

Tired & Exhausted

I am extremely tired now... Have not been sleeping well for more than 2 weeks now. My mind has never been in rest for even one second for long long time.

Why are we turned out to be like this? Why everytime when I were happy and feeling blissful, things were not the way it should be?

J has not in contact with me for almost one week now. I texted him few times but no reply from him. Must be BUSY again... But in fact I know that he doesn't want to reply me. So, what am I actually waiting for? I sound quite idiot coz I'm waiting for someone to love me.

Why things have changed into this manner? It never come to my mind at all. I wasn't prepared for all these at all.

Oh... Please God... Please help me God... I just need simple life...

Soi till mou lit...

Soi soi soi....

First, my bro's pc hang kang... bought new one

Second, my sis's pc got free warranty change for her laptop fan and dvd rom... then, got window problem... YW helped her to reinstall...

Third, my home pc... was thinking to add on more RAM so it could run faster.... damn it... it turned out total dead... now, still diagnosing biut suspecting it's the RAM that spoilt... luckily still under warranty... dunno how long will they take to claim the warranty...

Forth, my office pc... just dead also yesterday... i classified it as dead coz couldn't do anything also coz it kept restarting by itself... still diagnosing also... seems to be Window problem...

why am i so so soi???? so soi that I myself couldn't believe...

So headache la...

Anyway, thanks to YW so so so much... he is really my good buddy that is always by my side everytime I need help... this is wat we call true friend... as what Jean said, friends are always the best and my friends are always by my side....

Thanks God for giving me so many good buddies...

Everyday is bad day

My fever is on and off.

My flu never get better.

Now I starts to cough and my throat is so uncomfortable.

My tears never stop dripping. Been 2 days and my eyes are always swollen and red. Everyone thought it's because of my flu.

I never been sleeping well since past one week no matter how tired I am. I need to keep watching drama or entertainment programs till I fall asleep automatically. Last night I woke up at 2.30am and started to toss and turn on my bed till I got frustrated of myself. Couldn't remember how long after I tossed, then I fell back to sleep.

Been dreaming bout J so much. Just couldn't get him out of my mind.

Sigggghhhh.....

How could I have better day?????? I'm so weak and tired....

PLEASE BE STRONG CLARICE!!!!!~~~~~

Down and Moody

I'm so down. I'm so moody.

This is worst time in my life. This is the down time of my life. So down that I don't even feel like to live anymore.

I have been so fake to myself. Even though I'm terribly sad and down, I still need to stay normal to everyone. Couldn't cry or throw any tentrum to express my sadness anytime that I want.

Could only hide under my quilt and cry as much as I could.

Why I need to go thru this????

I already had no hope and wish in my life. Everything dimished like bubble just in a day time.

Why shouldn't I deserve for a better and more blissful life???? Why everytime when I was really happy and blissful, things didn't turn out???

I'm physically and mentally weak now...