Down and Moody

I'm so down. I'm so moody.

This is worst time in my life. This is the down time of my life. So down that I don't even feel like to live anymore.

I have been so fake to myself. Even though I'm terribly sad and down, I still need to stay normal to everyone. Couldn't cry or throw any tentrum to express my sadness anytime that I want.

Could only hide under my quilt and cry as much as I could.

Why I need to go thru this????

I already had no hope and wish in my life. Everything dimished like bubble just in a day time.

Why shouldn't I deserve for a better and more blissful life???? Why everytime when I was really happy and blissful, things didn't turn out???

I'm physically and mentally weak now...