Upset

I'm so upset this morning that I couldn't control myself crying.

J told me this morning that most likely he is going with his family to States in July. Though he kept on telling me not sure yet he may come again this year to celebrate our 3yr anniversary coz he almost finish up his holiday after his States holiday. I know myself that most likely he will not be coming to KK again this year.

I know I need to be understandable in this situation. Still I couldn't control myself being upset la. Hai.... Why am I so weak?

Dear Lord, please make me stronger. Please make me more understandable. Please help me. Amen.